Peace through the storm

Do you ever have weeks that feel more like a television show than real life? So much has happened, and so quickly, that it's hard to absorb. So, until now, I've chosen to let the blog be my "happy place," and leave the worries behind.

First, good news. My sister's surgery was a complete success. They removed the entire right kidney, and the cancer along with it. She had a mostly good hospital stay: wonderful staff and care, but a scary time when the epidural wore off and the pain hit hard and unexpectedly. Oral pain meds and oxygen did the trick to right the problem. Still, I know that must have scared her.

Overall, it went excellently.

Now some bad news. Julie and I went up there on Tuesday night to visit and bring Amy and Vu some PF Chang's food. Julie and I ordered Mongolian beef to share. Mongolian beef. Mongolian beef. I had to repeat that all night. We started eating... and Julie choked. I kid you not. She choked on beef while visiting someone in the hospital. What are the chances? She could breathe, but couldn't swallow. Anything. Even spit, She vomited repeatedly, but that did no good. The doctors sent us down to the 2nd floor ER. Two little sisters in the hospital at the same time: one for cancer surgery and the other choking. Yeah, it was quite the night. Poor Amy had no idea what was going on down in the ER. After almost two hours, IVs, anti-nausea meds, X-rays, and a call to the gastrointestinologist, Julie finally dislodged the food and we went on our merry way. Yeah. No more beef for you, Julie. (Should have been in a Friends episode, right??)

Okay, more good news. Tell me when you start feeling sick on this roller coaster.

Yesterday Amy was released from the hospital. Yay! Most importantly, her pathology reports are all back: no more cancer!! All of her symptoms should be gone now, and life will resume as normal when she has fully recovered. It should take about two months to heal and regain strength. Another praise: her husband will be home, with paid leave, for the entire two months to take care of their adorable fat baby.

Some very bad news: my aunt just found out that her breast cancer has spread to the lymph nodes and bones. Christine and her family need prayer please.

More big bad news. A few days ago, we got word that my Mimi's CT scans were not at all good. Her pancreatic cancer has now spread to her liver, lungs, pelvic region, and has significantly intensified around the bowel area. She must be in pain. I pray every night that she won't suffer. I just can't imagine fighting such a horrible disease. I wish I could hug her and stay with her, and shield her from any kind of pain.Yet, through it all, her voice is soft and kind. A nurse of hers wrote yesterday and told me, "she looked so beatuiful. The peace that radiates around her comes from the Lord I know."

Some other not-nearly-as-bad-in-relation-news: car troubles for everyone in my family. My sister's car went out and she had to pay quite the hefty fee to get it back. And now the transmission on her other car is going out. Yeah. Then my Dad's truck died. And then my van. We'll be paying several hundred dollars to pick it up today. Sigh. In the grand scheme of things, this so-does-not-matter. Not in the light of cancer.

Good news: I feel shielded. Yes, I've cried. I did get lost driving the other day, just cruising along, deep in thought and then I "woke up" and had no clue where I was. Life has been consuming. Sometimes I can sail along, happily and smoothly, just enjoying the scenery. But the last few weeks have been different, rocky, fraught with danger. But yet we are shielded. Somehow. I can't even explain that but to say I know I'm being prayed for. I know my own grandparents, struggling with cancer and the pain of impending separation, are still praying for me. And their prayers are being answered with the gift of peace. I've never before cried like this, and yet still felt such peace.

(and my italics are stuck, so just go with it...)

There have been days lately when I catch myself having "too much fun," enjoying life too much, smiling and laughing... and I think, "wait, people are suffering. People are hurting. I shouldn't be so happy right now. I should be crying. How am I even supposed to feel??"

I don't know.

I could ask if it's okay to have peace right now. Okay to be happy in my day-to-day craftiness and schooling, using my blog as a haven. But I already know the answer is yes, even if it feels unnatural. I cry, but I'm protected. Even the financial aspects feel "okay." I wondered today if we were being kept off the road with the kids for some reason. And then I prayed and thanked God, if that was the case. His ways are higher than mine. I'll do my best, but I'm trying not to question the things completely out of my control.

This is a haven at times, and will continue to be such, but it's also a great way to reach out. I ask you to please keep my sisters in prayer. Both of them, as Julie seems to be very prone to freak accidents. ;-) By golly, she never should have gone sky-diving. Could have ended very badly.

Please pray for my aunt Christine, her daughter Rachelle, and the rest of the family. Please pray for my Mimi. That whatever time she has left will be as pain free as possible, and that she will feel so loved, and at peace. And please pray for my Papaw as he takes care of her very day. This is the greatest trial of their lives.

In more good news, today is my 12th anniversary to a fabulous, funny, laid-back and handsome man. He is my best friend. He has stuck with me through it all. And I love him so much.

Honey, SHMILY!!! (See how much I love you...)

Photo bookmarks

In my family, there's a lot of book-giving around the holidays. Wouldn't it be nice to include personalized photo book marks with each gift? I saw this example at Zakka Life several months ago. Isn't it cute? You just glue the photo to card stock, laminate it, and cut around it (arms or hands cut separately with an exacto knife.) Viola. Durable, memorable, personalized gift within a gift.

I have several copies of this picture, so I may make bookmarks for all three of us. :-)

Yes, it's still fall!

About a week ago we made turkey handprints. Yes, sure, it would seem that a couple of my kids are too old for that. Psha. You're never too old to fingerpaint! I made one, too.
My kids used to do this at church every year in the fall, and I think it's a good tradition.
Paint each finger a different color, and the base of your hand brown. Smash your hand on the paper. Let dry. Add details.

And now for a "Homemade Christmas" goal: I will post at least one homemade Christmas idea every day until the Big Day. At least, that's the plan. We'll see how it goes. :-)

How many minutes are in a day?

1440 Minutes... but I make mine stretch. :-)

Meow. Yes, I've been sewing kitty cat hats out of fleece and old sweaters.

Fred models for me. Thanks, baby. You're so hot.

This was the sweater. Cute, but too big. Nice for kitty stripes. (tutorial soon)
One sweater = four hats, and two glittens with covers

(you know, fingerless gloves...like mittens.)

(This is what I do to pictures of myself that I don't really like. Distort it so that I'm only kind-of recognizable... have to show the hat actually worn as a HAT, not a ski mask robbery thing-- can you imagine?)
Little Lad in his yellow yoda hat. Yes, the new puppy name inspired me to create yoda hats. I'll make some green ones with larger ears next.

By the way, I've had some people ask me recently how I find time to sew and craft. And so I ask: how can you not find time to sew and craft? :-) It's nourishing. And necessary. Like reading or bathing.

For hand stitching, I use car or waiting room time. We went to the Tulsa Zoo over the weekend. That gave me two full hours to sew while Fred drove. When you factor in clinics, meetings, the revenue office... wow, lots of "free" time.

So, where was I? Weekend plans. On Saturday, we had an impromptu playdate.

Boys. Gotta love 'em.

That evening I hosted a Ladies Game Night for some friends.

Pay back for Murder Mystery Night, Jules!

We played "I have never," Imaginiff, Apples to Apples, Taboo...

Then Zoo on Sunday:

And Family Firepit Night when we got home:

Phew. Busy weekend.
Last but certainly not least, Amy's surgery was today. I kept up to speed through Vu's Facebook postings. Really, going up there with four kids to spend the day in the waiting room wouldn't have been wise. Although I felt like I should be there.

I'll see her tomorrow. From what I hear, the surgery went perfectly. The entire kidney was taken out. Amy went "down to sleep"easily, and woke up smiling afterwards. That's Amy for you. She'll be in the hospital most of the week,, so we're all bringing plenty of magazines and things. Any reading donations are appreciated. And please keep praying for a full and speedy recovery.

leaving fall behind...

Everyone is already in a tizzy over Christmas, but we're not ready for that... quite yet. Yes, I'm thinking about gifts and crafts... watch for a whole series on "Homemade Christmas," coming up. :-)

We're enjoying this one day at a time. I'm not leaving fall behind yet!!

The weather has been so uncharacteristically warm. I think it was about 75 degrees yesterday (and today!!) so Fred and I took the kids to the park for the afternoon. Little Lad preferred the leaves to the play equipment.
Fred is out watching football right now, and then I'll go out with my girlfriends tonight for Game Night. Can't ask for more perfect days!

Yoda~ may the force be with you

If you keep up with me on Facebook, you already know that we got an adorable little bolognese dog. Yes, click on that link and read all the fantastic stuff about this little guy. He's great with kids, hypoallergenic, house-trained, doesn't shed or bark... this is my kinda dog!!

We all love Yoda.

(I realize I've been skipping my daily-blog-therapy-sessions. It's not because I have nothing to say or show; on the contrary, there's simply too much of everything: news, crafts, school, field trips, you name it. So much to say and share, yet so little time...
Still, I do need my bloggie-sanity time. More tomorrow!)

update on Amers

Quick update on my little sis:

Amy will be having surgery to remove the cancerous kidney next Monday, the 9th. They expect a 3-5 day hospital stay and about 2 months of recovery. Keep her in your prayers.

The Artist child demonstrates where a kidney is. Ouch. She just had hers removed, too, apparently. ;-)

Love ya, Ames.