Saturday, January 24, 2009

Refocusing

Well, I've spent the last 24 hours in a fog, crying off and on. I didn't sleep well, and my mind has been a bit hazy. So thankful that my sisters and parents were all here last night.

I have a fantastic family.

Can you tell Vu got cold last night? I keep my thermostat on 68 usually, and my poor family froze.

Yes, I did turn it up eventually!

Mimi has been her usual self: cheerful, the glass is always "half-full," and "we're taking one day at a time." I still have so much to learn from her.

When I was on the phone with my Dad earlier, again on the verge of tears, I told him how much I've been struggling with directing my thoughts. He reminded me of Ecclesiastes 3.
There Is A Time for Everything
1 For everything there is a season, a time for every activity under heaven.
2 A time to be born and a time to die. A time to plant and a time to harvest.
3 A time to kill and a time to heal. A time to tear down and a time to build up.
4 A time to cry and a time to laugh. A time to grieve and a time to dance.

Right now is my time to rejoice that I have TIME; that I can go and see my Mimi; that we can build even more memories; that I can hug her and see her and enjoy her laugh. It is not my time to grieve. Mimi is here. And I have to believe that she will be here longer. I have to believe that God has a mighty purpose He will bring about because of this. Already He is teaching me new things.

And, instead, of being scared of leaving on my last day, I will look forward to our next visit (hopefully in May, if she feels up to it.)

Anyway, I'm just processing a tad of this "out loud." The rest I will hold in right now.

My mom posted pictures of our last visit with Mimi and Papaw. I posted a couple of them, too, and you can click on over to view the rest.

This little man will be coming with me. :-) He can always make me smile.

4 comments:

October Dawn said...

I mentioned you and Oliver for prayer in Sunday school today. These are women who know what it is to go through this kind of situation. Hang in there! Glad to see your thought process here.

Ann-Marie said...

We will be praying for you and your dear loved ones, as well!

Just what are those Woods up to? said...

Wenders, we had a great time at your house the other night.

We'll be praying for you and Oliver as you go! I love you!

Shan said...

I'm sorry you are going through this Wendy. I'll pray that your time with Mimi is precious and just what your heart is needing right now.