Monday, February 22, 2010

working through submission

Sometimes something in my life will click into place so well, that I don't know how I ever functioned without that piece of the puzzle. Art journaling is that piece. I have this need to create, hence four children and numerous crafty endeavors. And, because I love to read but tend to have a poor memory, I take lots of notes. I think on paper, sorting and sifting through what I've read and what I believe. It's my own form of meditation, to keep me on course. Anyone else get sidetracked by stray thoughts when praying? But, for me, merely writing (eek, writers, don't cringe!) is just not enough to keep me going. I need to be making something in the process, or my true feelings and thoughts cannot be expressed....In this case, it's about submission.
Submission to the way of Christ is a struggle that I face in my daily life, yet it is also the path of freedom, healing, and intimate relationship. But from children and their parents or teachers, to employees and their boss to the citizens and their government, people struggle with submission to authority.
My problem? I'm fleshy. Like Paul says, "For the good that I want, I do not do, but I practice the very evil that I do not want. But if I am doing the very thing I do not want, I am no longer the one doing it, but sin which dwells in me."
Ack. It's not just the "big submission things" that I have to deal with (homeschooling was hard -- LOVE it now, but it was sure a scary decision for me!) but the daily handing over. I am an over-reactor. So the act of submission for me has to be constant. I'm working on that. And sometimes it simply hurts to be pulled the right way. Yet I know I would yank my child back by the collar if he stepped into the road. I love him. And thank God He does the same for me.

Often my hardest lessons are when I'm the only one attending class. It's about that One-on-one time.
Ta for now.


Soaring High said...

Wendy, Submission is an area I struggle with on a daily basis. I have always been strong willed and strong minded. Submission often means making a choice that I don't like and isn't popular with others. It may not even "get better" for a long time. I pray that God continues to mold and shape me and grow me to be more like Him. I can only do that when I submit to Him.

Just what are those Woods up to? said...

I like to be in control of things. I've been working HARD on letting go of that, and letting God take it over, and it's blessed me in unexpected the simple, sweet feeling of waking up happy and peaceful. Still, being the control freak that I am, I have to "let go" again every day. I love your pictures (aka beautiful thoughts), keep it up.

Loveandadoor said...

You are amazing!! I LOVE your journal. Let me start there, your creativity is inspiring. I love paper and want to make books and journals etc.. I am not finding the time right now.. but I love what you are doing. (absolutely LOVE what you are doing..) would love to see more! Also.. I get the submission thing. oh yeah... a constant surrender and re-dedication to what I am supposed to be doing. I am with you sister! Thanks for sharing!!