
"I have no greater joy than to hear that my children are walking in the truth."
3 John 1:4



Today's agenda, while the storms rage on:
Craft, Paint, Read, watch family movies, and spend time in prayer.
This day is heavy with hope, anticipation, sadness, longing...
On Easter, Jesus defeated death
and saved us.
**edited note** look at the difference: the picture above was taken with the camera that I used Before, and the one below was taken with the new Canon EOS 60D. I bet you could go all the way through the post guessing which pictures were taken with which camera. It makes that big a difference!! Okay, continue.** I made the shirts with stiff felt & heat bonding and then stitched around the corners.
My Sister/ Sidekick helped me paint mustaches on all of the kids who wanted them. Did you know that most poster paints and acrylics are non-toxic and water-based... it comes off easily with a baby wipe. :) Save your money, and skip the paints specifically for face-painting. They're also harder to remove. 
The bean bag toss game was made from a piece of scrap wood, some black paint and a jigsaw. I filled the beanbags with rice and beans.
Julie, Tracy, and me



(love big sister's protective hand on her little brother)

My sweet little toddler has turned into a defiant, rascally little bugger, almost overnight. And, because of the extra energy and emotion that it's taken to deal with this astoundingly naughty little boy, I've been much snappier with the other kids, too. ;/ Bad deal.
After a week of this nonsense, I'm feeling rather discouraged, angry at myself for not consistently responding well, and more than a little ticked that he's been such a snot. Mostly mad at myself. If this is a test, it's pretty small in the grand scheme of things, and I'm already failing it.
I did some yelling out loud, more in my head, took my deep breaths, and then still proceeded to need my own "time out" on the kitchen floor (trying to breath while my teeth were grinding.) And, instead of relying on God, having quiet time, or calling for support, I threw my own little pity party. "This isn't US!" "This isn't how it's supposed to be!!" "WHY are they fighting all the time?" "What did I do wrong?" Yes, I did. Right there on the floor. I might as well have been stamping my little foot.
And I wonder where he gets it from. {sigh}
I have been praying about it, usually at night, when the kids are asleep, and I can think loving thoughts about them again. And I'm finally coming up with some tactics. Tomorrow we have a plan. A new schedule. More outside time. More Daddy Time. Firepit planned. A new spot for the time-out chair. Oh, yes, I'm on the ball.
And I have a back-up plan, too! If things turn south, I'll run away. No joke. ;) My Man is home tomorrow (hallelujah, do you hear singing??) so I can run a lap around the neighborhood if my stress level elevates too high. Oh, speaking of stress rising-- My Little Lad saw my deep-breathing today and asked, quite seriously, if my head was going to explode. Perhaps I've mentioned the possibility too often?
I'm also reinstating my late-night art times. How on earth had I let that slide? Got too busy listing books to sell, finishing furniture (my computer desk, TV table, a desk for a friend...) Redoing furniture is fun, but just finishing it isn't "artsy" in my book. I missed my creative time badly.
So, first, you can pray that my boys will not kill each other through the winter. Why must boys wrestle nonstop? Outside it's fine and dandy; go ahead, knock each other down, climb trees, play in the mud-- but when we're stuck inside, they MUST learn to deal with it in a semi-decent way. I put the pull-up bars back in the doorways, but we really need a padded "ball-pit" room, and an indoor playground, complete with climbing wall (Michele, I'm relying on you to invite me over when you finish your room!!)
Second, you can help hold me accountable for my own behavior. I need to pray, seek advice for this new stage from more experienced moms, be consistent with my art "therapy," and take enough time away from them to remember how absolutely fabulous they are. That's a biggie; Fred's shift, plus our recent sickness, have thrown my social life out the window. I miss my friends. I miss being away from the kids, for at least a few hours a week. I NEED to miss them. I hope that makes some sense.
Ah, sigh. Confession helps the soul, too, I think. I know I'm not alone. And I know that anyone who would judge me, simply hasn't walked in these shoes.
So, here's my artwork for the night. My therapy, if you will.
progress:
Not sure if I'll end up painting this or not.
My goal (a bit half-heartedly, maybe) is to post a new piece of artwork every night. Which means I'll HAVE to draw or paint something every day, or at least add to a picture. Fingers crossed.

We opted out of traditional birthday cake, to have Little Lad's favorite, strawberry shortcake, instead. 
Even a Polka party needs pirate hats!
AAwww
Kids can stay entertained for hours with party hats and balloons.
One sweet friend even gave homemade polka dot crayons. :-) So thoughtful and creative.
Polka dot foods: chocolate birds' nests with malt ball eggs, pretzel balls, orange and banana slices, round shortcakes with strawberries on top.

At age 2, Scarlett has perfected her hair flip.

I had a great time, with fabulous family and friends. My sweet Little Lad just ate up the attention and yummy foods. I know I'm short on descriptions, but I've been short on time and energy, so I'm trying to catch up now. :-)