Thursday, September 20, 2007

Emotional Roller Coaster

Where to begin?
It was an interesting day today. We did our Sonlight Bible today, with a twist. For our Exodus lesson, I had the kids write and illustrate their own little books about the ten plagues. Let me tell you, there were some very interesting pictures in there (think: dead fish floating in a river of blood.) Hmmm... maybe not the best idea?

We did a unit approach for the rest of the lessons, just to shake things up and have some fun. Ants. All about Ants. We made finger print ants with our ink pad, we figured out how much weight we could lift if we had the strength of ants (20-50X body weight). Ethan's favorite was our ant experiment on what kinds of food they like best. Cheetos won. Who knew? Then we graphed those results. Fun, fun. We did our regular worksheets, too, and reading, but I'm glad that I took the time today to do more "neat stuff."

So all that was fine and good. No kid problems, except for Trevor pooping in the bathtub. I looked forward to the book study all day. Tonight was our last one :-( but it was fun, with yummy brownies, pumpkin cookies, banana split dessert and ice-cream. Yum, Yum.

But it's hard to switch between happy mommy, loving wife, and concerned daughter. I am just riding a roller coaster with my parents. Things seem to be going along a semi-smooth track for a bit. I'm lulled. Then I get that wake up call again that things are not okay. Why am I surprised? Why so upset? And, really, most of the time I'm okay, but tonight I did get upset. I just want to kick myself for becoming complacent again.

Just pray for our family for the next few weeks, and the long haul. Things have changed and will never be the same again. It's hard to look into an unknown future, especially while mourning the past on some level. Maybe they both really will be happier. I'll be okay with the change, but the new road needs to start having some consistency to it!

2 comments:

Brook'sBlog said...

We are praying for you and your family girl. I know that when my parents divorced, I "acted" upset, b/c that's what i was "supposed" to do. I mourned my "normal" childhood. But they were much happier apart, and of course I wanted my mom and dad to be together, but i also wanted them to be happy. Alot of my anger and sadness was for the "sin" that they were doing (divorce) but quickly knew and remembered that they'd have to answer to God for that, and that I needed to worry about me.
I know it's so hard, and I know that for your "Children" it will be hard to understand, but you are the most wonderful mom I know, and I know that you will get them through it. I'm here if you need to talk!

Ann-Marie said...

Wendy -

I'm not really sure what you are going through since we haven't known each other that long, but please know I consider you a friend and am praying for you! I hope things calm down real soon. Hang in there!